Somewhere between Heaven and Hell. Ode to you..

And I wept with the Moon for I knew she was no longer mine… Each moment slipping further into night as dawn chased her away… I begged, pleading to the Moon for love is like begging the Sun for Mercy. Her Fire and Passion consume all who dare taste her flame. Yet still I weep as the wheels turn and my heart grinds to a bitter end. So now I tuck in this heart and shaking hands. Bare no more witness to my heart and soul. For sleep, sweet sleep has replaced your name on my tongue and weary heart. Goodnightmoon
B-2018
#iwritestuff #abstractexpressionism #pnwartist #strongerthanyouknow #missingyou

When you lose everything.

I’ve reached a wall, I’ve tried to be kind and patient. I’ve tried to communicate my needs but now I’m done. The other day I lost an email account and all the files associated with. Sadly this email account had 15 years of my life attached to it. Medical,professional and personal. Kids pics,my memoirs and international contacts. Needless to say I’m literally sick to my stomach. My ex-wife is fighting me for custody of my son and I’m pissed. So……..Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Yeah, I’m going to sue the wholly hell out of Comcast if I don’t see some type to resolution.
**Side note: This just in: earlier today 9/24/15 after writing the first part of this post I decided to do some research an found the emails for the senior executives of the Comcast corporation ane sent them this email which I first sent to the CEO of the company,

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To each executive I sent a copy of this email with a different subject line: Some reading ” Flash~Comcast loses disabled mans vital records” or ” Flash~ Comcast mocks man with Parkinson’s disease after losing 15 years worth of data. So this afternoon I get a call from Shiela and she’s “very concerned” about my situation….. Well since I really don’t want to sue these people, I really want my data, memories and information back I gave Sheila the chance to do her thing. On the flip side I have two legal teams salivating to eat Comcast alive from every angle so either way somewhere someone will understand I’m seriously pissed. 

Same thing with this child custody thing, how could anyone who knows the bond I have with my son try to stand in the way of me and my son. I’m not asking for full custody just 50/50 we part the same way we came. Anyhow sorry now I’m being a whiner, just venting. But seriously I’m not backing down 😀.
Update: 9/30/2015
Still waiting to see if they can recover my files…. Though now I’m actually talking with their corporate office instead of the pathetic excuse of a customer service department.
Well I’m gonna hit post instead of leaving this random draft in my phone.
I hope the world is being kind to all of you and you to it.

Namaste
B.
“A life on hold”
2015

Everything changes

So the question is. If everything changes what are we working towards? Where are we moving towards, and what is the goal of this life..?
Kind of a heavy question… Well honestly, I see the answer as simple. It’s the getting there that’s hard. Happiness. Peace of mind and contentment is the goal. As a whole, I feel we’ve lost touch with what happiness is and means. Sure I know it’s different for each of us but in many ways it isn’t .

 Having and living with Parkinson’s disease at a young age has taught me that Happiness is our common ground, the one thing that all humans crave, we share the same desires to feel loved, to feel safe and cared for. These feelings translated into actions create a common, and mutual sense of happiness. A sense of home and well being. Sure money and stuff is nice, it’s a great distraction and creates an amazing sense of freedom, but at the end of the day we all die alone with nothing to take with us but the reflections of our lives. The sense that we accomplished something in our short time on this planet. For me it’s Art, family and the sharing of my story and journey through an un-curable progressive neuro-degenerative disease so that in the future it may be easier to understand and diagnose Parkinson’s disease.
Thanks again for stopping in an letting me share my journey. I look forward to seeing you again.
Benjamin
2015
“A life in progress”

**Todays thoughts are brought to you by a conversation I had with my 16 year old son. Today we talked about the finalization of my divorce. Trying to explain that even though life as both he and I knew it has changed it doesn’t mean that we, he or I can’t still be happy. That I still am the man, father and mentor I always have been regardless of where I live.

A little sneak peek of my current works.   
 

Message in a Bottle ~ Sold!! Thank you NY

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Message in a Bottle
24″x36″
Mixed media
2014

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For me this is a timeless expression of love and mystery and abstract expression of want and hope, dreams and desires. My visual interpretation of that feeling of writing ones heart on a parchment and encasing it in glass and throwing it into the hands of destiny.
I do so hope your day has treated you well. I’ve been amerced in paint all day, honestly my favorite place to be. Please remember to always Be brave, be bold and thrive in the life you have. Because I can guarentee things will change whether you expect them to or not.
Again many thanks for stopping in where ever you are, be loved.
Sempre
Benjamin
2014

Second Layer~traveling painter

Good morning,afternoon and evening. I hope the day has found you well. I have been in my favorite headspace today, the studio. Regardless of where I am if I am engaged with paint,passion and purpose then the studio and I are one.
Please enjoy layer two of this three panel piece.

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As I start to define and shape the character of this piece I will try to include close ups of each panel in the correct succession so you may come closer to seeing it as I see it.
Panel 1:

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Panel 2:

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Panel 3:

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Currently there are multiple washes of blue over the yellow we saw in previous posts as well as the natural marbling that happens with this style of under painting. I figure I’ll give it the better part of the day to dry and see if its ready for varnish so I may continue onto the next phase of this piece.
Thanks again for coming by the studio
I hope this fine Monday has found you well, Be brave it’s only Monday for 24 little hours 😉

Much love and Paint
Benjamin