I remember why I’m here.

If this is a dream do not wake me for I have found heaven in the heart of this darkness. In the hardest of times I gave it all up. I had somehow become unworthy of love and happiness as it had been known to me. I had become more, or maybe less than I was as a man. Either way when the dust settled I was alone, barren of the seed and fruits of my life long labor. All my memories dashed upon the rocks of a misguided future and worst still,there were monsters waiting at home to devour what was left .

You didn’t leave a stone unturned this universe of God and mankind. I , you have deconstructed this human beast into a diffrent creation, something of joy and beauty, sadly cursed with the passion of a thousand men the heart of a lion, the soul of saint, tongue of the devil and hand of a hero.

I come to you on bended knee take me as I am. Take me for me and I’ll give you all that I be.. I have nothing and everything to give,.the only thing left is me.

B-2019

Thoughts and expressions of my life.

Completed~ Passages

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“Passages”
18″x18″
Mixed media
200 usd

An now for our customary close ups.

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Upper Right

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Upper Left

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Lower left

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Lower right

WORDS
~Passages~
Theses lines find no home
They just are…..
Or are they? Do they not give way to this journey of life?
Each new encounter not unlike a passage from your favorite book or a stroll down the lane at dawn as a gentle warm breeze pushes your hair aside.
These lines find no home…..
Or do they..?
Do they settle in your heart as they do
mine.?
Does the gentle sun as it warms your face remind you of my touch as it does mine to you.
These passages have found a home..
A home in your heart of hearts that only you could have done.
Passages
Benjamin
2015

As always my friends please take the time to be kind and understanding with each other for if not YOU then WHO positive change starts with you.

Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.

Benjamin
2015
“A life in progress”

Random acts of kindness….

Those who know me in the real world know I practice random acts of kindness all the time. At certain times of the year they are not so random ( Christmas donation of hat/gloves/scarves ). Those who know me in the real world also know that time and dates/days have very little impact on my life. With time being relative and technically the date and days are so far off from the actual universal clock what does it matter…. But that’s an all together longer topic than I care to type out on my phone…. Anyhow those who know me know that if it didn’t happen today then my normal go to phrase is “the other day” which day?? Hell if I know lol, but it wasn’t today that much I do know.

So the other day 😉 I was at my friends restaurant and lounge. Kraftworks and I ran into a group of people who were admiring one of the paintings I have up. I was introduced to the table, we chatted enjoyed a pleasant conversation then I went on my way. Later that evening while at Maven, I ran into this group of people once again… Yes Salem is a small town when you live,work,play within a 3 block radius. So here I am making small talk at the bar when I decide this very charming group of people need a bottle of wine, from me 🙂 as I’m leaving I have the wine delivered because I really don’t want it to be a big deal. Yes it was good wine, I probably should of joined them but that wasn’t the purpose. In complimenting me on my work and being very kind in general they made me happy. I figured I’d return the “warm fuzzy” feelings via wine. I left…the wine was delivered I figured that would be the last I’d hear of it. Well this morning,very early I receive a txt saying that some art appreciators had come by and left something at the restaurant for me and it had now been slid under my door.
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Not only is the card a beautiful vintage photo of a Hawaiian beachfront hotel but all three people wrote some truly kind things. Which by the way is a wonderful way to start any day.
Words I woke to:
Benjamin, I wanted to reiterate just how amazing your work is. Your piece in Kraftworks blew my family and I away. Thank you for the surprise at Maven. You’re a beautiful soul and it was such a pleasure to met you.
Take care,

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So today started right. As far a the ole Parkinson’s adventure goes….it could be better but I can’t really complain. Well I could complain a lot but it wouldn’t change anything nor would it really serve any purpose. On the up side my assistant is settling in nicely to her role in my life, I have an intern starting on a regular basis very soon and I’m looking into a paid position for someone local to act in a “caregiver” status to help shuttle my ass to Dr appointments,groceries and errands that come up. I’ll know next week what piles of paperwork I need to do to make that happen.

Thanks for coming by today as always it was lovely to see you, I’ve missed you being here with me. I hope where ever you are and what ever your doing that it brings you joy. Life is to short to spend a great deal of time unhappy.

That being said,
Much love and light.
Always,
Benjamin
2014
“A life in progress”

Random words:
Of all the souls I’ve kissed and missed yours is by far the brightest, said the moon to the sun.
B~xx

First Paint+1

The end of summer and beginning of fall are always a time of great reflection for me. The days start to grow colder and shorter, the leaves here in the Pacific Northwest begin their change from green to gold. The world looks back at the summer days and longs for one more night.

One more sunburned kiss one more most amazing sunset ever.
**Special thanks to Ottawa for the sunset memories**
Lately I’ve been focusing on two pieces. Both born from a previous commissioned piece.
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#1 green/yellow/blue currently I’m not releasing the title.
And a close up.

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So far on This piece just the back ground is done. It’ll still add some primary aquatic color and texture.
The second piece is I’m colors of passion…. Or as I see it.

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And a little up close and personal pic.

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This piece will be completed in this style:

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I’ve also been re-touching an older oil piece. This was one of the first Abstract “mother and child” pieces I did starting back in the late 80’s early 90’s. This piece used to be 4 feet by 4 feet then one day durning a cross country move~ disaster struck…..a rip in the canvas.. 😦 this small 18-24 section is all that was salvageable. In my opinion it’s title and image still stand the test of time. It’s an embryonic view of mother and child.

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Well folks that’s about all I’ve got for you today. I hope the world has been kind to you all and you to it. Please remember to always.
Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have. You never know when it will change… And it will.

Always
Benjamin
2014
“A life in progress”