April 4th I check in at the imaging department at OHSU. On the 5th I rest and finish any and all last minute life stuff. The next day on the 6th of April I have my official surgery. I stay in the hospital overnight, then assuming all goes well a few days later they insert my power pack, then 2-3 weeks later I get plugged in and tuned up. They’ve provided 3 days worth of housing free of charged which is a blessing indeed . Unfortunately the who process is two surgeries and a recommended 30 day healing and stabilization period. These donations will go directly to the lodging and direct care that OHSU and insurance doesn’t cover. Any and all donations are impactful and I can’t express my gratitude and thanks for all of you. Please share the link even if you can’t help monitarily . All things done with love and light will be successful. Always and with some luck, science and faith I’ll see you all on the other side of this. If not please remember to always be brave be bold and thrive in the life you have.
Into the heart of the matter does a man not begin to see things clearly after years of experience and silent hell spent yearning for things lost to the uncureable and fortunes failure.?
Give him not the grace of wisdom by failing to prove faithful and loyal of heart and mind, then truly demons mist walk among us in the shape of Eve and Angels lost of hope and heart, broken and cursed forevermore. Wings of gossomur silk traded for whispers of a ghost, lost in the darkness.
Again surrounded by confusion and panic. Living in a roller coasters heart has taken its toll… I’ve grown to tired to fight anymore, the soul of Hope has been bled nearly dry by harlotts and harpies. Grown so tired of endless giving, endless judgement and critics galor. All for a place to rest this weary and weathered soul, a cursed night and endlesswonderer now numb and tired from the rain and cold of this life. Shivers uncontrolled now echo these bones of truths giving pardon only to fires in my soul as I drift away…
The End… A freewrite by.me
Benjamin M Prewitt 2017 December 31st #myshakylife
I’ve been having kind if a tough day around the house today 99% of which I’ll share another day or who knows in the journey or maybe sporadically in my writing, one thing I did manage to do is clean my studio:
Your probably thinking omg if that’s clean etc… Well trust me it’s clean(er)
I’d did however begin to map out some details in the “Green Girl” which I will share before my life sucks me away again.
Sorry about the glare in the upper left one of the studio lights is out 😦
Before I go I just wanted to say how much each and every one of you means to me personally. Like the song playing may indicate its been a rough year for me and my family. Probably in my 42 one of the worst personally I’ve ever had. I started this blog in July with zero previous blog or online presence or experience, friends,followers or whatever you want to call us. But so many of you have embraced me as a friend a man an artist and poet. Not as that guy who used to be a business man that got PD an lost his life. Through this community I’ve been able to realize that I have value above and beyond the titles that corp America gave me and that I can be appreciated for the man,artist,poet and father that I am at my chore. So with that I’ll let my tornado pick me up and do what it will.
Until next time.
All my love and thanks
Benjamin M. Prewitt