I have nothing good to say today. So I’m going to say everything by writing nothing. Well nothing compared to the whole I space I was ready to tare..
Two humans whom I’ve recently known have given me the opportunity to realize my greatest fears and pushed me to grow further than I realized I could and for that I’ll say thank you. May the good Lord take you sooner than later. Just saying 😉
Such course discord these days……
No laborious conversation, I’m sorry seems wasn’t good enough.
Time……….s a little b followed by the big itch of life’s tragic drama..
These grains grow deep with roots in a time and place so lost and forgotten I almost forgot to tell you…..
It always feels like I’ve forgotten to tell you something….
Where is that child o’ mine?.. Lost in the wilderness of a new jungle, caught in a trap of words and wishes.???
I may never now….
“A life in progress”
*photo @ Bush Pasture Park Salem Oregon. Oak bark;digital edit.
** it’s hard to explain what it feels like to be in this body and mind. Often as if I’m watching me watching the world as I sit in silent awe and observation.
The sun shines so brightly on this day of days
Fifteen years ago as I stare into your
Eyes and promised to never leave your side. Oh how life has challenged that promise over the years.
I severed your connection to the flow
Of life that fed you and was the first to greet you into this world.
My life has never been the same.
Charged with honor and pride I stepped forward a new man with a new name as you called me Dad.
You are the gift of all gifts the light of all light, you are my son and I love you more than the air I breathe.
Happy Birthday Boy ‘O
Many of you know about some of the most private details of my life at this point..
Some of you would even say I’ve over shared…
I guess that’s the beauty of what happens here we all have a choice. To come together under a common bond and share the joys and
sorrows of each others lives. Some to comment, some to watch from the shadows and judge. Either way I made a decision when I first started
blog to be open. Many people forget that this site didn’t start as an Art blog but as my personal journal cataloging my life and struggles with coming to
terms with Young Onset Parkinson’s disease. This journey has taken me around the united states and abroad I’m happy to say I’ve shared every step along the ways, the good the bad and the very ugly personal truths of my life that in reality many of us share in common but would never put out there the way I do.
I’ve said it before and Ill stand by it. I’m a man, no different than any other with the slight exception that I paint and write my heart and soul for all to see. I end 99% of my posts with a kind word. And I pose some hard questions and thoughts because I believe that one man and one voice can change the world.
Art and words have lost their meaning and I will not stand for it another second. For if YOU will not Be Brave and Be Bold or Thrive in the life you have….. I will. If given the chance I would take your hand and shout your name from the roof tops to show the world your brilliance and compassion. Live your words or don’t use them at all. At this point I’ve lost all of it. My job, my career my home and my family and Ill be dammed if I’m going to silence my heart and soul now.
I just received word that I’ve been accepted into a local art co-op. 4 floors of prime down town retail, commercial and loft living space. A place that is positioning its self at the edge of creating an new feel a new scene thriving and ready to make Art believable again. Any person can put brush to canvas, lead to paper and glue a stone to a ring. But only a few can create through there passion to express that love, fear and strength through their art. So again I say…to you.
Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have… No… life is not easy for any of us. But if I can live through the things I’ve seen, done and had happen to me then you can too. I believe in you. I’ve seen your strength, beauty and passion.
That’s all I’ve to say. Namaste Benjamin 1970-current “A life in progress”