She’s finished… Phew… And I don’t feel like I screwed it up. She is so close to my vision I’ll accept it as completed.. Otherwise I’d have thousands of uncompleted works sitting around the studio.
This Lotus for me is again part of a healing process I will probably be in for the rest of my days. Healing from one life to the next one transition to another as the one sure and true thing that this life does offer is change. I’d like to believe that what rise out if transformative change is a more strong more pure form of who we are to our most core nature. Though these life events tend to be the most brutal and unforgiving I’d like to think that they can also be if observed correctly a marvelous tool of self discovery and growth.

As I transitioned from a “career job” back to a more true version of my passions in life via the vehicle of Parkinson’s disease I though life couldn’t get anymore hard. Then the loss of my wife and children through our separation. Proved me wrong. I must admit my heads been spinning none stop of the past 4 months. So slowly, painfully I’m finding my way. New support system, new friends, challenges and opportunities.

So I too like this Lotus flower hope to grow from the dark waters of my past and Blume into something new a chance at life and all the joys and pain it brings.

All those things being said. I carry a calm in my heart as if I’ve a baby rabbit in my hands. Soft, peaceful thoughts, no hasty movement, just patients and tender care. I guard my heart a bit more than before and that makes me a little sad but time dies change all wounds and we know how I feel about change, I’m counting on it.

~Lotus Flower~
24″ x 30″
Mixed media
Benjamin
2014

To those of you who read this far down…. Where you are and what ever you do. Please remember to always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have… You never know when it will change.