The winds have a chill early this year and the trees are as red as can be. I sit here pondering life as the last of the night slips away just before dawn kisses her hello and goodbyes to the moon.

I find myself so torn and so truly overwhelmed by life. This inability to focus or remember. This “Grey” tone to life emotionally as i feel no chemical connection no evocation besides fear, confusion and the dissolusions of dreams. Yet each day I wake pray for all to be strong enough to be the best person they can be whilst, i struggle daily with simply moving around the house. I pause millions of times in my head and hundreds of times in a day as i struggle to express verbally how I feel but my tonal changes in voice influction often prohibit me from accutately getting things across. Same with my word find. But ya know there is still beauty in the day. The sun has started to rise through the morning fog. Silohettes of great pines stand strong against the sun as it breaks the tree line.

Today I’m thankful for the little that I have, for it means the world to me. A few friends, close and dear. A few dreams yet met to give up a chance and the faith that all will be well in the end. Much love and light.

Benjamin. “Be brave, be bold and thrive in the life you have.” You never truly know when things will change,, and they will.