I have to write it down before it slips away. I have so many things I’ve forgotten to say. So many things that have come undone. So many things that have be left unsaid . Things that must be heard before I am dead.
I did not mean for this life that I have it came upon me in the night as lay there in bed. Next to sleeping I lay there weeping for not bone or muscle could I move nor word could be said, And. I wept as I’m weeping now and forever shall as my life is my own and I’ve lost the only home I’ve ever known. All I can say is I’m sorry for the things I’ve done and said that made you wish that I was dead. For here I am just weeping instead.
Somewhere in the story of life we got lost you and I. I thought I’d found you only to have you fade away. Where you’ve gone I don’t know. I don’t how you are or where you’ve been. All I know is I miss you. I’ve nothing to give anymore for it’s all been taken from me. My heart though is pure yet tired. I yearn like a child to be held once again.
My mind is always awash a million trillion thoughts at once colors taste funny and sound feels soooo good. I will I could share the world as I see I am feel eachday . I wish I could share it with you these colors of the world, these dreams and hopes for a greater place than I . Dreams to give back to the earth to the world and humankind . To do one last good deed before my bones lock in place and my mind fades away.
You know I loved you from the first time I saw your face .. I have to go now for tears cloud my eyes like years that have hardened my heart. I have nothing to give but myself and that never seems to be enough for anyone. It’s okay I’ll soon fade away with the knight sky. Until then I’ll play with words like you played with heart. Someday I’ll be whole again. Someday…but not today.
Be brave , be bold and thrive in you life. I don’t know where you are or. How to get ahold of you. So I’ll leave this here each year I’m alive so you know that I never stopped caring and I didn’t walk away. I was asked to leave so I honored what was asked of me as I’d always done. Anyhow I love you,I miss you and wherever you are I hope you are happy and you know how much I miss and love both you and your sister dearly. Please know I am here and I will always be here for you, when you’re ready to talk.