It’s been a long time since I’ve spoken freely or even felt well enough to paint,write, buy clothes or purchase home goods of any kind. I can’t even begin to tell you what it’s been like over the last 12 years. Losing my family, my children, career, many friends and nearly my life . I sit here with a heavy heart , tears in my eyes as I realize my time is short. Andersen, I miss you please find me. Bella I’m sorry so much of my illness fell on your shoulders after your mother kicked me out. Please let Andy know that his mom put a restraining order on me after I was through with cancer treatment and trying to heal. That’s why I couldn’t reach out. I’m sorry, Dad