I will never be okay with the way these things went. I will always miss and love you. I haven’t been whole since lost my way and never will. There was only ever one thing I wanted and that was family. The one I never really had as a kid. The one that was taken from me. To have lost the only one I made makes this life barely worth living. Even when I’m isolated from the world and embraced by the very rare love that still finds me worthy I bare this deep deep pain.

To my family I once made , I hope you are well. I know so much has changed for you also. I miss you. Benjamin, Dad and Father .