This is where I come when I hurt the most.

Imagine if you will, sitting in a chair , feet bare , cool against the hardwoods. Then nailing your middle toe to floor and having someone push the chair over. 😱

Yeah, I don’t know what is up with my body these days. The pain is back like it was in the beginning. Maybe more so. My hips are a whole other story. Yes, my toes do actually feel like that almost 24/7 it’s an incredible experience to breath through. I’m exhausted but I can’t sleep tonight even though given the chance I’ve been sleeping 18hrs a day.. Yay depression and anxiety win 😵☹️.

After all of the stuff that has happened over the last year I gotta say damn I’m ready to move the xxxx on. It’s weird to feel so young in my head, soul and heart. Yet be so present in this body of earthly weights, desires and pain. Time for paint or sleep,… Or both we shall see who gets there first.

Much love and latenight rambling.

B-2018

Just me being me.