Oddly I find the harder I try to live a better life, to give more and need less. That there are days when all I can see is darkness of this disorder. All I feel is the lose of the things,people, and memories, some people and Parkisons disease has stolen from me. There have been times in my life when the universe has shown me its true gifts in life and others when it’s stripped me to bone and laughed as I failed. My brain incapable of creating the chemical that comes with making a stable, strong choice in life… Gone, unable to see through the Agnosia and lingering damage done from chemotherapy and radiation treatments directly to my head and neck. Today I haven’t seen a flower worth remembering. Today is just one of those days.

One of those days where you just have to shed tears of sorrow, to allow one’s self to truly grieve for our perspective loses and emotional suffering. Today the world seems cold and brutal.

It’s just one of those days.

Benjamin 10-16-2018