“Roberta Flack The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face ’69” on YouTube

I just needed some music 🎶 in. My life.sitting here having a Spanish coffee, thinking I’ve never spent quality time in Spain maybe I should go. #bucketlist  It’s sad the more time you spend away from someone who is supposed to be by your side the more you realize that you can do it on your own.. That to me is sad because I don’t want to be going through this alone and I’m not but I am in a way.  I’ve heard from none of my family except my mom and aunt. I spend my days and nights alone pondering if life is worth fighting for and why. I didn’t like my life with Parkinson’s disease maybe God is giving me a quick way out or maybe he’s making me prove I have the strength for the next fight that is out in front of me. Idk. Like I’ve said, living in only the present is lovelier than living in the past or dreaming of only the future 🔮.  The present has no reflection like a vampire just taking from life of life a annual flower only giving until the giving is gone.  I’m frightened of the future and cursed by my past.  

Or maybe I’m just an over dramatic sensitive artist 🎨 type. Anyhow cheers and much love. Don’t be afraid to take risks in life.  You’ve just this one here on the rock use it well. 

B. 2016 “A life in progress.” 

5 thoughts on “ “Roberta Flack The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face ’69” on YouTube

    • Thank you Kate. I just get so lonely waking and sleeping alone. Spending everyday in my head. Sometimes i walk to th store for gum jist as an excuse to talk with my voice to another human. 😢 but im just being a baby lol. It just gets old you know. Stresse 😜😜😜 lol

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      • It doesn’t get old Benjamin. Feeling alone when you re well is bad enough. Feeling alone when you are ill I’m sure is worse. People sit at bus stops to talk to people, or sit in cafes/pubs and just start chatting to the people on the next table. Maybe there should be ‘talk benches’ around like they have in some schools so anyone who just wants a chat can sit and people come to them. I am glad you make the effort to go to the store, just to get out of the house and interact with people breaks up the day:0)

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  1. Funny you should chose Roberta Flack, I played that song over and over again on my dads , your granddad’s record player, while I had no where else to sleep but on his couch. Honestly sweet child of mine, being alone can sometimes be the cure. You have to learn how to cope with the loneliness which is really hard to do, Still you don’t have anyone there who is hurting you again and again. You have been victimized just don’t be a victim. Your the best ever the love of my life..

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