Okay, so it just really hit me today… I have cancer.. Regardless of the kind, which I’ll find out tomorrow, I have cancer and Parkinson’s disease 😂 😂 😂 and I start some form of radiation and chemo in a week or so……
Yeah, wtf happened to my life. Seriously deep breath. This is hard, that’s all I have to say. Waiting on finding out what kind of cancer I have is like experiencing waves of shear panic followed by surge after surge of nausea.
Deep breathing and complete superficial denial seem to be working so far until I got back from the hospital today. Then like a ton bricks and a stream of tears it hit. This really really is happening and I think to myself oh dear God am I even physically strong enough for this has Parkinson’s taken it’s toll. So very very stressful.
Okay I’ve spoken my peace and updated my dear dear friends and family here. Im cleaned up, fed and ready for bed.
Please one thing before I sleep for a few, never more has this message I’ve been sending for years now seemed more appropriate. “Be brave, be bold and thrive in the life you have.” you never know when and how it will change and I guarantee it’ll change.
B.2016 “a life in progress.”