To be thankful

Life…. The one constant I’m thankful for. Below you will see why. I was looking for a previous work that spoke to where I have been in this journey for the passed 3 years and I found this one. It’s ripe with pain, fear, agony and confusion. This poem if you will is a constant reminder of my thankfulness to life and it’s ever present change. I’ve lost a lot to Parkinson’s disease and to my own stupidity but I’m thankful. I’m thankful for the pain, challenge and struggle I’ve lived. It has made me a better person, a person who’s more aware of his needs and desires as a person. I mean let’s face it folks the reality of Parkinson’s late stage is pretty fucking awful. So for me in this life change is good, hard yet enlightening in ways I never thought possible. I’ve lost and received more support and love in the last four years than at anytime prior in my life.

The poem:
Darkness finds me grasping at your door
Let me in I cry for the night is cold
Dark
Alone
The pain seizes all that I am
Fear
Consumes
Balance
Lost
Shakes and quakes fly from
My bones like bats in the night
Relentless
Unforgiving
Constant
Sleep is lost like child in the woods
Tremor
Hard
Pain
God find my heart and take me from
This place
Of
Dark
Cold
Pain
Frozen in time my hand search to find the words to free my soul
Nothing, nothing……….

The feelings and reality that induced these words makes me glad that humans when open to enlightenment and change are capable of overcoming any struggle.
Side note: I’ll be back in my studio September first and I look forward to creating for all of you and myself shortly.
As always, be brave, be bold and thrive in the life you have. Why? Because it will change.

Much love
Benjamin
2014
“A life in progress”

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6 thoughts on “To be thankful

  1. A heart-rending poem, Ben, which I think speaks for a lot of people. Thank you for sharing this, and the thoughts above. Hugs. xxx

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