I must admit that’s how life has been feeling these past few weeks. I feel like I ended the year really strong as a person and as an artist, I guess it’s one in the same really. Momentum kept going through the first off the year then physically, mentally and spiritually I feel like I’ve hit wall.
It’s kind if like sitting on the edge of a cliff as I watch the ideas poor out of my mind an endless sea o colors and words yet for some reason I can’t quite reach them.
I’d like to think that every artist goes through these periods of self analyzation and doubt. At least I hope they do. I have been able to produce some small works that I have as gifts today I believe they fit the people whom they were given but I just can’t seem to shake this doubt or lack of heart I’ve been feeling as of late. Most of you know I detest the business end of art. I was in ” business” for 25 years and was very successful at it, those days I painted on the side maybe doing one or two pieces a year. So I’ve done business and honestly I have no desire to get back into it. I’ve dedicated the rest if my remaining life to the empowerment of people through art, the healing of souls through words and paint. To raise awareness of Parkinson’s disease. Yet here I sit looking blankly at the Coral piece trying to decide if it’s even worth finishing.
This piece is called
“Do you see what I see”
11×14 w/o frame
This piece went to a person whom I believe doesn’t see the gift they are to the world. Neither of these people I know every well but both of then have extended much kindness to me and this was the best way I know how to repay that kindness. I still though can’t shake this feeling of emptiness. Hopefully this coming weekend with my brothers will re-inspire my passion or at least give me a better grip to which I can hold onto some of these visions I’ve been having. I don’t know maybe it’s the depression or the Parkinson’s or maybe the meds. I guess I’ll keep painting and see what happens right? Well I hope the world has been kind to you on this fine day.
As always be brave be bold and thrive in the life you have.