In such small places do I find peace
Hiding under rocks and cracks in the street.
A single leaf placed by nature as it will and seen in a way only my eyes can see.
My body betrays me today as I push and pull against the madness of me
Muscles clenched in a endless game of tug of war.
The pain surges like a broken oceans tides splashing electrical discontent
Across the landscape of my frozen body.
Find the pills!! A small voice from the depths of my darkness screams, each step a mile in the making. So….slow…..this body goes at times.
Joints locked by an unseen jailer dangling keys just out of reach… So close yet so far away……..
** yesterday’s visit went well with my new doctor. She’s thorough and it seemed she was willing to form her own assessment of my symptoms and not just read chart notes. After driving up to Portland, having my visit then driving back walking in the door and instantly cooking dinner when it came time to sit my body/mind crashed and it crashed hard. I slept straight through my pm pill alarm again!!! I woke at 3a this morning in some of the worst overall body pain I’ve had in a long time. See the carbidopa-levodopa keeps the stiffness away so not taking my pm pills is bad come morning time. Since taking a huge handful of pills at 3a my joints have released enough for me to be able to write this but the fatigue and hip pain is still extreme. I intend to stay home and paint today. Sleep, paint,write rinse and repeat. Okay well I’m going to put the phone down and rest.
I hope the day gives you all your heart desires.