What gives you strength? Or the peace of mind to carry on? I think humans live day to day because we have been given the gift of being self aware. As our planet spins through the universe we have the ability to pick a point in relative perceived time and space and say I am or was here, and therefore I am.
Is it a gift or a curse.? I’ve been thinking if these things a lot lately as I watch my own clock tick away, fighting my daily battles with pain and Parkinson’s, watching my children grow up. My once black hair turning shades of grey
My once deep cerulean eyes fade
I sometimes find living in the now a bit like flying through an endless cavern peaceful and calm until you take the blinders off and realize your traveling at 24,000 miles an hour with no breaks in a spaceship that has little chance of repair and only limited life support. Then…, well I find it a bit scary as hell… I sleep very little which in a way is good as for the most part out if of the 24 hours a day we are given I’m usually awake for 19 or 20 of them so I guess when the time comes and PD locks me inside these borrowed bones I’ll have plenty to reflect upon.
Art, someone commented about my art in a way that I found captured the concept of what I do so well, the said “Love this your art carries so much emotional energy !! Just love it :)” Emotional energy those two words I think capture what I’m doing here in my little poorly lit studio. I’ve alway strived to make people feel. I have an opinion that one of the things that is desperately wrong with our society is we collectively have stopped feeling, we’ve been desensitized. For instance when I was growing up you had to stay up till midnight and watch Benny Hill to get a glimpse of a breast or a bra and now you can see more T & A, real time murder and destruction before breakfast is even cooked. Sadly most people don’t even blink an eye at any of it. Any how, I’m ranting now instead of waxing philosophical about time. I’m told it’s Friday so Happy Friday!!! Great job you made it!!! Another week well done
As always thanks for stopping by and tolerating my early AM monkey mind, may the day be kind to you and you to it.
My Friday challenge to all: Make one person smile,
It’s a strange concept this thing called time. When we are young we think we have “all the time in the world” and when we are grown we wonder where all the time went. I ponder this anonymously called time often as our planet spins and I talk to friends from around the globe. Wishing someone good morning can be so relative pending on where your from or if you even share the same “time zone”. I go with my youngest today to register him for his Freshman year in HS. As a father no different from any other it trips me out a little as I was the one who cut his umbilical cord and whispered his first promise in his ear when he was just seconds on the planet of ours. Born the length of my forearm and slept by my side protected and safe from harm for over ten years. Each night I would read to him and we would share our thoughts, laughs and questions of the world. ” Dad why is up called up”? Now I send him off to a place of judgment and angst. Makes me proud and nervous all at once. I pray I’ve given him the skills to thrive in this life, as this once small protected child of mine now stands at 6’1″ taller than I.
As most loving parents say I’m lucky, I have great kids, the thing that makes me sure of this is the fact that im told this by other people. I think thats the true measure of a parents success. Are they happy, healthy. Its odd that I sit here and share these things as I am feircly protective on my boy. As he sleeps and I type I cant help but be amazed at the passing of time.
So amongst this fathers ramble the point of it all. Take time, take time to tell the ones you love that you do. Make time for the friends you have that you never call. Take time to heal your broken hearts, and wounded souls. For there will come a time when you’ll ask yourself “where did it all go so quickly”
You can feel the summer slowly start loosen its grip as the crickets come back out to sing.
The sky starts it journey towards darkness just a little earlier every night.
The summer fruits have come and gone i welcome the bats as they will return shortly.
I can feel change in the winds, yet for the first time in what feels like a thousand years I have no fear of them.
I do not go quietly into the night
For I will sing with the crickets and fly with the bats as I paint what’s left of my story…..
Each day as the dawn draws back i hear echoes of thoughts waft through my mind of things to come and things gone by.
I sit and ponder the gifts of the day, my breath, my heart, my love and compassion for all living things. What gifts we bring to the world and what we
ask in return from this perilous oh so vast expanse of space we occupy.
Today; ups,print store,car wash,studio, my favorite place the paint store. I don’t work in the sense of what 95% of you do as I’ve been on full time disability since 2/19/13 but as you know that freedom came at a great personal cost. I am burying this next bit deep in this wordy post because it is only for those who take the time to read all the words. I have a chance to occupy a studio space in my town it would give me the opportunity to bypass the local, ” arts and craft” galleries that abound in this town and open a real working studio. If anyone wishes to contribute to this happening email me personally for the details, as a painter I have only one gift to give which is my work in exchange for such a chance. Today brings great hope to our world for it is a new day, a new chance to be the great humans we were all born to be. Some of us writers of words for lovers and lost souls or painters of things yet seen by this world. All of us are equally important and gifted in each right. Never forget that. Who you are and what you bring to life by simply existing is a gift unique only unto yourself, something know one besides you has to give. So shine on, the star that you are and look no further than the mirror in front of you for the beauty and strength you seek for its been in you the entire time.
All my love, all my strength I give to you for I need it not on this day or any other.
I came to you a broken man
You filled my heart with joy
I came to you lost without a home
You opened your doors and welcomed
With shakes and quakes I came at all hours of the day and night.
You always gave me shelter.
Through rain and pain you gave me comfort.
Through fear and flight I gave you hope and a kind word.
To: All and anyone reading this post I wanted to say thank you. You truly have no idea how much my WP community means to me:
9 month 2 weeks 639 followers
1030 posts 13.5k comments
And it hasn’t even been a full year.
I started this blog out of a need. A need to not be alone in my life, I’ve never have had a blog or online presence before. I was alone and scared with my Parkinson’s all I had was my art yet not a single person to share it with. I had pain and PD and paint. Now I can add people to the list which has given me again more hope and joy in my life than many of you could ever fathom. So while I can, let me give thanks. I give thanks to you. The people that take the time to comment, reply, interact and be a part of this experience with me.
On bended knee with all the love and strength I have. Thank you I never would have stayed if it wasn’t for you.
Benjamin M. Prewitt
Painter,poet,warrior and friend.
Time flys when your up to your eyes balsa in paint. I was shocked how much time had gone by and then by what felt like so little accomplished. I’ve been to develop some depth and tonal distinction within this piece. I hope the day has been treating everyone with kindness and love today. So far:
All the same painting just bits and pieces of it to share.
**To be clear this is not a sad post if you take one thing away from “tomorrow never comes” is please live for today!!
When writing this blog I’ve learned a lot about myself the good, bad and ugly. But with this type of site it requires me to be very honest with not only my views but myself. Thank you for letting me grow through this medium and supporting in these ever changing time of my life.
Studio time a bit later
Much love, in your life. Be brave. Be bold. Thrive in all you do.
As the sun rose I’m left with traces of you
Glimmers of my past, a sweet taste of love long since changed by time.
My heart takes me to that place where we used to meet, thorns not thickets and petals soft as silk.
We were just children then
I remember the taste of your cherry gloss kisses
And my boyish smile , so brave so bold.
Nights of house and let’s pretend
So many what ifs
Now all grown with family’s of our own
Time has changed it all, except one small place in my heart where the roses always grow.
I’ve loved you since before the hands of time found their way to the light of day
I met you once on a desert vast were the earth was hard and made of clay
I’ve loved you since I was a small child with shy eyes and a silly grin
I’ve seen your soul on the palm of my hand where the lines cross but never meet
I’ve loved you since the age of sages and Sanskrit
You with your bows and pretty laces.
Our eyes met on a fleeting train, in the rain in Spain or was it Paris I forget but I never forgot
I’ve held you in my soul waiting for the lines on my hands to meet.
I’ve loved you all of my days.
Hope you enjoyed tonight version of midnight music. To all good morning, goodnight and good afternoon.
May the world be kind to you, take you in its arms and be gentle and forgiving and you to it.