As the stars track clockwise through the heavens I’m reminded of these new changing times. Reflections of my past giving chase to tomorrows memories and dreams.
For whom shall I be now that I am once again free to be me, who is this knight of pure heart and black soul, Cast down from the heavens eons ago. Left to wander these time in paint and prose. Of lovers lips and and sunken ships that have sailed so long ago.
I search for myself amongst these things we think we need and wonder how and why and who am I.
I’m left with lineage, love anguish and tremor. Pain and paint,passion and woes. But this my friend is where my garden grows. From ashes and fire from human desire. These are the things I’ve become. Of drink and desire and maddening rage, one name, one word my love for I am he.
Benjamin,.. is all that I be.
**This poem was written 2013 but I find that it still holds true.
Oil pastel,plaster,inks and acrylics.
1/4″ birch panel.
As always thank you for joining me here, my home away from home… The studio. Reflections Is part of the “Love Language”
Series. This piece utilizes the panels natural grain helping the piece attain a water like consistency as the piece flows. Here I’ve used both a pallet knife and a number of brushes and scrapers to both add and manipulate the paint and added texture.
Please take a moment and reflect with me, this life, these times, days and minutes are only here for a brief time. Enjoy them, be thankful for the painful roads, the happy times and fill your day to day with memories upon which at your time you too may reflect upon.
Smile and be filled with the joys and lessons of your past.
As always to purchase or commission a piece please contact me directly all contact information can be found in the Gallery or Print tabs.
Please always try to remember to “Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have”
Such a soft spark of light glimmers in the distance~
Reminds me of the lost shores of
wanting and remembering all
the turns it took to find the light.
Passages left lost while opening doors
never sought after or imagined possible.
A Glimmering hope of a life only dreamed….. Of paint, prose, travel and smiles.
Such a soft spark of light glimmers in the distance~
It’s been a while. My apologies. Things have Ben going well. The new house and garden are coming along very well.
I’m starting this post 5/7/15 hopefully I’ll post it today but if not at least we have a starting reference point. It’s Thursday here in the states. A beautiful sunny day as I write to you from the back garden.
I’ve been doing some painting on a few pieces one you’ve seen before but it’s taken a year to create.
I should have pressed the post button, I’ve been doing a small amount of painting or rather I painted a small painting:
1/2 birch panel
This piece was the first of many inspired by my new garden and new chance and chapter in my life.
**Garden flower inspiration
Collage of close-ups and original painting. As always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have…
Talk to you all soon.
“A life in progress”
If you’ve never known love you should try it. It comes in many flavors, shapes and sizes. Some to be worn only after dark and others all year round.
Love being a thing one wants to hold onto comes in both a large and travel sizes so whether your on the go or staying in for a while love will be there when you need it, want to give it and have to keep forever.
Some love is heavy while others are lite. Some love stays forever and some touches us just for a sec to remind us why we are alive.
So if you’ve never know love then do so but be warned once bitten by the love bug nothing will ever be the same.
“Be brave, Be bold and Thrive in the life you have, you never know when things will change”
**original photo processed with Adobe and Instagram filter 2015 BMPStudio**
It’s been a few since I’ve written and thought it polite to give a wee update. Katelyn and I moved to a very cute little cottage out south here in town. I’ll be able to set up an outside easel this summer as the yard is huge!
The house is small but has excepted us nicely it’s a 100 years old this year so we plan to show it great respect.
Here are some quick photos from around the yard.
Well it’s just after 6a here and it’s time for mass amounts of coffee and my meds. May all your dreams come true, I’ll be painting soon again and look forward to sharing the new creations and get back into selling and showing art. Here’s a blast from the past Circa 92′
Please remember to be kind to each other for you never know when one small act of kindness could mean the world to the person receiving it.
Until next time.
“A life in progress”
Life……. What a topic right.! It’s been nearly 3 years since I started this blog.
And the other day as I watched the waves crash upon the shore of one of my favorite Oregon beaches I realized my life has come full circle in the time of three years.
Continued: 4-1-15 Most of you know by now it takes me a few days to write these posts anymore, some because of my hands and this new iOS update that sucks….. Makes the keyboard split on my iPad.😡 Anyhow, I’m moving tomorrow.! Down town was a good place for me to blow off some steam and collect myself after the events of the last few years but the time has come to move to a “home” with a yard and neighbors with yards. There’s no question I miss a great many parts of my old life sadly I can’t change what happened I can only grow as a human, forgive my past and embrace my future.
I wanted to thank all of the people that have stayed with me on this journey from diagnosis with Young onset Parkinson’s disease,divorce, love, hate,failure and success. In the last few years Art and Parkinson’s disease have both crippled and set me free.for that I’m thankful everyday. Thankful and determined to fight this disease, thankful yet sad that it took a incurable progressive and degenerative neurological disease for me to clearly see what it’s like to truly live and love life to its fullest. Sorry for the sappy sentiment but ironically today 04-01-2015 known as April fools day here in the states is also the day that my government “Officially” lists me as permanently disabled :-/ Yay……. ( sarcasm ).
Well after a few (3) hours of sleep I’m up once again except today…… I sign for my new place I begin moving, healing and starting a new future full of excitement and hope. Soon I’ll be able to paint again with same passion I have for years I dare say this new chapter of life may be my most inspirational yet. On a parting note I’ll ask you all one thing that I’ve requested before, please do one kind thing today for someone who doesn’t expect it.
Until next time, be brave, be bold and thrive in the life you have for you never know when it will change.
When I was I boy I traveled the stars
On a bed with wings and chocolate bars
I soared with angels and fought with demons, changed the weather controlled all the seasons
When I was a boy I wandered the desert and gazed at the sky
I turned into a bird and learned how to fly.
I sailed in the oceans and swallowed a sea
Found my true evil she looked just like me.
When I was a boy a dream I was a man stable and sturdy healthy and strong
Now I’m a man and dream as I may
Something was lost to a far younger day.
There was a calm that came across the morning sky as if all the angels has sung at once.
My heart and head rested in this silence guided by dulcet tones of calm.
Hues is blue, gold and green washed over me as if the palette of god painted my soul it self.
My body rested from its pain,tremor and twisted long enough to hear the angels sing.
A gift of serenity, peace and calm I will cherish through out the day.
There be paint on these hands again!! Woot!! Here is a very brief look at my current work in progress.
And then another;
Here we are seeing just the first layers of color and texture. I intend to add a secondary layer of both color and texture at a later point using the same technique seen in the “Love Language” collection.”
Well then my dear friend and family I hope your all doing well. Much love and may all your dreams come true.
Started 3-6-15 ~
Each day I struggle to find words to express myself in a way that truly reflects the emotional content of my work. The thoughts, trials, burdens and joys that go into each painting I do. Often I find simply expressing how I feel in verbal form gets complicated and misinterpreted as my Parkinson’s steals my ability to hear my own tone and voice inflection. Or the social awkwardness as my face doesn’t often express the emotion I’m feeling at the time. “Smile and wave, just smile and wave” lol. Echoes through my head all day.
I’ve been out of town for a day plus visiting friends and looking for a new place to live. I’ve decided to carry on with the life I want the very best I know how these days. Soon I’ll be classified as “fully disabled” on April fools day here in the states 01-04-2015 lol. Ironic isn’t it.
Two days of random life stuff, a few more good pictures and some great memories but still no paint :( honestly I’m not motivated to paint here in this space anymore. It feels tainted in an odd way. Though many great things happened whilst living here, I feel done with down town. It’s time to put my “Big Boy” pants back on and put Humpty Dumpty back together. Being the human I am as my time with the paint takes a rest my desire to write starts to churn again. I’ve been thinking very seriously about writing “That book” everybody has been telling me for years to write. Who knows what I’ll do, honestly my partner and best friend and I have some much life to experience together that I’m not worried I’ll run short of inspiration for this lifetime and many others.
“Each day I love you more”
Well truthfully if I don’t post this now it’ll never happen so I’ll leave you with a few my thoughts. Live the life you want while you can, it’s in life’s nature to change so cherish each moment for next may and will bring change. Take the advice of those who love you unconditionally and love the ones you do with everything you are and ever wanted to be for it maybe your love that fills their cracks like no other.
As always, “be brave, be bold and thrive in the life you have.”
Sorry to have been absent as of late. Life yet again has taken an unexpected turn. But with some patience and some luck all things will work out just fine. Here’s a couple of the photos I’ve been taking of the world around me. As per usual it’s the world as I see it, please enjoy.
Another beautiful day.(Amity Oregon)
I hope all of you have been well, someday I’ll paint again. Right now my heart and head are in to many place to be productive. As an artist and person with Parkinson’s I’ve not been feeling secure in my living situation which for a person in my medical situation is very, very scary. I need stability and currently I’m feeling like I’m waking a tight rope :( oh well. Day by day right?
Anyhow I hope where ever you are when you read this that you know someone else is smiling because of it.