A long time ago… Before some of you were even born I fell in love with life. It’s ebbs and flows its patterns and cycles. I found an old friend this morning whilst I was clawing my way out if the darkness that I’ve been plagued with as of late. This darkness born of want and need both physical and spiritual. Feelings of never truly knowing what step to take and watching as I race the clock to fill my heart and mind with as many sweet dreams as I can before the death lights come for me. But I digress. I found an old friend this morning. An oil on canvas piece I started when I wasn’t “painting” back in the days of 80hr work weeks and corporate mayhem. Having never truly stopped the flow of paint since I started some 37 years ago I have dozens of these old 1/2 finished pieces hiding in cubbies around the studio, having packed them around for years fearing if I didn’t then I would truly lose myself to what I needed to be at the time verse who I’ve always wanted to be.
Sometimes life takes us on strange journeys to lead us back to where we started. I’m lucky. Luckier than most I realize this. I was able to see my dream come full circle and still be young enough to live it even if only for a brief time. And if I’m even luckier still I may convince the rest of our prevailing art world that it’s not how it is painted but what and where the paint comes from that is important. Here is a quick look at a piece I’ve decided to call twenty years and twenty minutes. Hopefully by reading the preceding text you’ll understand it’s title.
Canvas….I haven’t played with canvas in years. Twenty minutes of remembering brought us this today. I think I’m going to go purchase some linen and glue it to some panels and see what happens… Could be fun. Yes?
I’ve also been working on the next figure form in the collection I’ve called my ladies in the past. I believe I’ve done six of these in my lifetime thus far. She still has some work to be done but is coming along very nicely .
With a little luck and some focus I’ll be able to finish her before I leave this Thursday. She’s a gift for a friend.
I’d like again to say thanks to the many of you who brighten my days and nights. Who help keep me focused and guide me from the darkness I so often fight. Living with this new friend of Parkinson’s disease has been challenging in ways I never could have fathomed. So please know this. I cherish the many of you who’s gift of kindness and gentle words that have found their way to my head and heart.
I hope the universe fills your lives with all you desire and all you require.
If I showed you the heart of the child would you promise not to laugh?
And if I held you in my shaking arms
Would you tremble with me or walk away.
Does the depth of your heart run deeper than this electric light
Or is it shallow like a river run dry
Could it be an ocean or deepest of loch
Warmed by an evening breeze
Gentle to the skin and kind of heart
Does it require all that I am or can it stand against
these turbulent waves that crash against the shores of my mind.
Deep and rooted like trees of the gods.
Entangled in emotions deeper than hell itself.
Fear not of the child’s heart that weeps at the sound of bird song
Or the smell of roses
for a soldiers armor guards this heart with with sharpened tongue
And words that sting.
Lay by my side or walk with me in the night and you shall have but a piece of this guarded heart to hold and call your own forever and a day. For I would give it all away I am nothing yet have always been
full and empty, craving yet lack nothing. Neither angel or demon nor child and man,
Love took a wrong turn at Albuquerque or maybe Albany
Love said build me a home and we will live together and for happily ever after
Love said “Baby, I can’t sleep without you, I’m nothing without you, I would die without you”
Love left her alone to die while he went Bowling… somewhere Green
She had built a house from nothing, it was small but a place to start
She furnished it with Budweiser and books; his favourite soap and dreams
She built it all for the two of them but it was a house of cards, it seems
She lives in a house that has never known his voice and will never know his love
Well it’s that time of the year again. Time for me to pack my paints, brushes and palette knives and head out into the wild world. For those of you who may be new to this space. I do commissioned work all around the world. In many cases it’s far less expensive to arrange to have me come paint personally for you than it is to purchase and then have shipped a larger piece. I find the travel very rewarding and I love meeting new people and seeing new places.
Last years trip to the Midwest brought into the world my first real triptych piece:
As well as started the wheels turning on what could be done with the Coral series
This year again I’ll be returning in this next week for a week long painting and writing session. Then in April I’ll be making my way to the UK to meet up with some old friends, new friends and with any luck produce more art.
I can’t seem to find photos of the other pieces that are over-seas right now so hears a couple I found,
Their are a number more, I guess that’s one of the draw backs to painting as much as I do is I forget what tablet, laptop or flash drive has what on it, oh well such is the life of the traveling painter.
Well tis lunch time so I’ll bid you adieu until later, may the be kind to you and you to it.
So today! is the big day, I go set the show at Crema and have say I’m pretty excited to see how it looks in RL. Today you and I will see it kind of here and I’ll take pics in the morning so we can all take a look as it hangs on the big wall. For starters here’s a sneak peak at some work many of you haven’t seen before. These are some of the pieces I painted just after my dx of young onset Parkinson’s in November of 2011.
Though I knew something was serious in 2010.
So many questions
The long road
All four of these pieces are from the 2012 Parkinson’s series
I will also be showing some pieces that we’ve seen online but have never been seen outside go the studio.
The newly framed Message in a bottle
Companion-Red Dragon ~Coral
Sad little mushroom man
Many faces of Me
It should prove interesting to see how this show is perceived it’s very different from previous shows I’ve done. I must apologize for the tense used in some of this script as I feel asleep midway lol. As always my friends Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have. I will try to do the same. Today finds me alone and heading to Crema to hang these pieces in about an hour, tired and still not recovered from pt on Thursday. I think I need a bionic hip and spine replacement, that would be cool.
Ps: the traveling painter heads to STL on the 6th so stay tuned.
It’s been an interesting 24 hrs, most of which I’ve been awake for sans a few hrs yesterday mid evening. Pt yesterday kicked my butt, It’s still surprises me to find my new physical body so easily broken from what would have been considered a rough nights sleep. But I have heart IF nothing else.
If I can have patience in myself and ease into the day then a great day it will be. There is one thing that war and Parkinson’s has taught is that nothing lasts for ever and I embrace that ideal when the bad night come as they did last night.
Sitting in my rocking chair looking at my night..
Looking about the studio around 1-2am
Pondering a sketch done last year…
First paint as the night grows long.
After a morning nap exciting things will happen today. Love will be delivered to its new home today, Dark waters and 3 color abstract leave towards their new home today. I also will drop off Winters Birch and pick up the last pieces to be framed for tomorrow’s show at Crema. Well it’s Friday and I hope it treats all of you well. Me, I’m going to catch a quick nap then press the reset button on the day.
Pain seeps from my very soul on
This lonesome night.
These bones have seen far better days and nights than the one that has come to greet me on this fair eve.
Does god not have a plan? For why else would he cause his child and right arm such misery.
The night called my name early yet wakes me only to reminded me I’m alive. Such torture is unwarranted I beg.
Oh lonesome night have you found my heart amongst the stars above send her home for this vacancy causes such lingering remorse. Empty pit of heart hollow hell made of bed linens and empty promises.
Takes these shaken warriors hands and give them stay and a place to rest the head.
Hearing sleeps siren I follow, follow her voice into the light of the night. Body stiff as a frozen baby bird and heart as lonesome as the Dead Sea I leave you, me, he, we in thought and paint and prose.
Yesterday that is….I think for one of the very few times ever I missed a day posting. It’s a rare day when I don’t even pop in to say hi or give a quick update. Simply it was crazy busy.
Here’s a quick little update from my adventures. Now keep in mind I will post better “final” photos of these. I went and picked up the two pieces which make up the Dark Waters Coral set:
Dark Waters Coral series 2014
These pieces have a super high gloss finish making them have an almost liquid look to their surface. It’s pretty cool because the seriously look wet.
I also spent the day fiddling with the final touches on the tree piece which also sold yesterday and I will be taking her to the frame shop today after physical therapy for her new frame.
And last but not least I spent a great deal of time and paint hanging out with my new piece in the Good Night Moonseries.
Once I get some good light I’ll post better pics of the moon. The under painting and colors of this piece are intense. Between the cracks and divots ,layers and glazes there is a multi color explosion happening that my simple iPhone just can’t capture well enough without proper light. So that was my day except for the part where I had to help install a dishwasher in the number 2 kitchen because the plumber guy was a weenie and the random running around done that’s just part of my normal life. By the time I got back home, had dinner and was ready to relax my body said no more! And knocked me out till 2:18a this morning.
Oh that’s right I dropped off the piece for the show at the Capital building , silly me almost completely forgot. See I told ya I was busy lol.
This piece will hang at the Salem Oregon state capital building for a week during an annual juried show our city has. Kinda cool!!
Anyhow I missed you guys yesterday and many thanks to those of you who follow me on twitter and FB I appreciate the company whilst I’m out and about. Again today is testing at physical therapy boo, yes once a month I get to be reminded that PD is eating my body alive..yeah I know know that’s kind of a harsh statement but it’s simply just the truth. I have an amazing team of doctors and PT folks some of the best in the region so we’ll fight it until there’s no more fight left in me.
As always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.
In honor of Marfan Syndrome awareness month, here’s today’s Marfact (provided by the wonderful Marfan Foundation).
Marfact #25: People with Marfan syndrome should be treated by a physician familiar with the condition and how it affects all body systems. Careful management includes an annual echocardiogram to monitor the size and function of the heart and aorta; an initial eye exam by an ophthalmologist, including a slit‐lamp exam, with periodic follow up exams; careful monitoring of the skeletal system by an orthopedist, especially during childhood and adolescence; medications such as beta‐blockers to lower blood pressure and, consequently, reduce stress on the aorta; and lifestyle adaptations to reduce stress on the aorta.
Hi, how are you today, doing well I hope. As you may have guessed from my first post today I’m feeling a tad melancholy. I apologize for putting those vibes out into space, really I’m thankful, there are so many that are far worse off than I. So shall we take a look at some paint? Yes.. Okay then let’s do it!!
I took Message in a Bottle to get properly fitted with her frame today. I’m very excited to get it back this Friday so I can hang it in the March show at Crema.
I also took the companion piece Red Dragon ~ Coral series to get framed today as well. Another piece I’m really looking forward to seeing framed.
This show at Crema is going to be an interesting mix of both old and new some older pieces from late 2011-12 and then some newer pieces like the ones above. I did however take a piece that I hold very near and dear to me. Many I think will not “get it” which is perfectly fine with me. The work is titled
“So Many Questions” and it’s not just about PD though it is the first piece in the 2012 Parkinson’s collection. For me it’s also a very pure statement of how I think. I question everything, period. I have since I was a child and I hope to for all of my days.
So Many Questions
I’ll also be showing these older pieces, most of which have only been out of the house once.
The Long Road
I will also be hanging a number of smaller pieces this time as I don’t like to repeat myself when I show and except for some large pieces, most everything is sold already. A quick look at the little-ones.
The many faces of me
*never before shown in public
And if by some small miracle I’m able to complete the Moon and Me then I’ll show this piece as well.
Sorry for the poor photo quality on that on its still very much in progress so I haven’t taken any quality pics.
Well thanks again for stopping in tomorrow I’ll be dropping off the piece for the Capitol building juried show
I’m so excited to just be a part of the event, who cares if I “win” or place in my mind I’ve already accomplished my goal. The Capital show will hang from 2/28/14 thru 3/7/14.
As always, Be Brave, be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.
Much love and light