There comes a time in every artist life where we must let go. Let go of the pain and memories of our passed. I’ve been growing so much lately. Today I receive back some paintings from my ex-wife. I will be slowly making these available to the public as I find the heart to let them go… First I give you
Good day, it’s lovely to see you again, I hope the world has been kind to you and yours. Here is a quick look the first images from the studio. First a photo: Shroud
And then some paint:
The shroud Really made for me 2014 complete, the photo was taken 1/1/15 it evoked a feeling of closure, a literal putting the old year behind me, putting it to bed, entombed in the fading memories of my passed.
SHE is a work in progress a painting just for me.This will be the first of the 2015 My Girlscollection.
Well after having this entire post delete twice, I’m going to leave this third closing statement short.
Cherish the ones you love, forgive the ones you don’t am live with passion for the things you do and have in you life.
Much love and best wishes in this new year.
“A life in progress”
So here we are…. 1/2 the world is in next year and the other half is waiting to their turn. Honestly I’m sooooo ready to leave 2014 behind. I made some amazing friends and sadly lost some amazing friends. I found and lost love. I laughed and cried as loud as I could and somehow I made it to this last day of 2014. I painted a ton o paintings and traveled around the world. An none of it I worth anything without my friends and family. So to those of you who are still out there, THANK YOU!! You inspire, teach and make me strive to be a better person everyday. You make me try and give me hope, for that and for much much more I’m forever in your debt.
In 2015 I’m hoping to stay closer to home, making just the UK trip and a couple short stateside trips. I’ll be pouring most all of my energy into Parkinson’s advocacy work and painting. Well it’s time for me to hit the “post” button.
Much love and light.
**last post of 2014 pst USA
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 24,000 times in 2014. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 9 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.
The winds of change blow hard
hard and cold through the valley this morning.
Casting a chill of doubt and thought on everything it touches.
Bare trees replace the skinned knees
Of summer and cheeks are pink from a bitter cold bite
Instead of a loving hand.
These shakes of mine have found the best of me and thrown it to the wind. To be forever tossed like the last leaf of fall.
Such a bitter end for one who tried so hard.
Life lately has been like riding a storm at sea without a compass. At times I drift close enough to land to see the horizon lines of where’s I’ve been and where I like to be yet getting there seems to be growing harder and harder as this blasted Parkinson’s changes my brain chemistry.
Honestly I write this in a small moment of clarity when I can actually sit back an see my life and I wonder wtf happened.?
These moments of clear thinking are the ones that cause the most panic I think. When I can see what I was whom I think I am now and see the path that will lead me to whee I’d like to be again. So much work to do to get there. I often wonder how or if I’ll find the energy and resources to get there. But as we’ve all hear before and my grandfather used to say “where there is a will there’s a way” and I’ve always believed that life is just a huge puzzle with moving pieces. I can clearly see where I’d like to be in my life the trick is moving the pieces to the right place at the right time. Plus a ton of hard work and luck never hurt.
“Dear Liza a hole”
I’ll be spending the next few days compiling a group of paintings and prints for an end of the year SALE. I like to start each year fresh so stay tunes if you’ve had your eye on any pieces. Feel free to search the galleries for works o interest.
Again many thanks for your support over the last year I can’t wait to share this new year of adventure and growth with all of you and hey with any luck this will be the year they cure Parkinson’s disease.
“Never give up hope”
Motto for this year. I’ll explain in more detail later.
Much love, light and laughter to all.
“A life in progress”
Yep it’s that time of the year again where I put stuff on sale. Free shipping, discounts on large pieces. I basically will entertain any offer on any piece. It’s the end of the year and I really like starting the year with a clean slate. The above link will take you to the new “Print” page and from there I believe it’s pretty straight forward. As always if you need a hand or don’t understand what’s for sale, size, cost or you just want to say hi, just send me an email and we’ll figure it out together.
I’m in the process of working on a really huge project that I hope will effect a great many people with Parkinson’s disease and any person living with a disability. I’m in talks with the building owner to expand my studio another 450 sqr. ft. and in doing so put together a class room area and a working professional studio like I had prior to moving down town. The annex space will promote artists with disabilities from around the world and advocate for Parkinson’s disease. Statistical fact: Only about 5-10% of the million plus people diagnosed with PD are under the age of 50 years of age. It’s a small number sure, 10k people but think about how hard it is for science and technology to accurately and in a timely fashion diagnose and effectively treat people with YOPD when the testing an population pool is so small. I feel that the studio and my documented experiences with Parkinson’s puts me in a unique position to explain what it’s like to thrive with a disability. I’ve also started the paperwork for an Arts Grant to help finance the expansion.
Well it’s been a big day, grant writing, business proposals and writing programs. Some day I’ll paint again lol.
Over the passed month I’ve been so busy doing these small events locally that spending time painting for my own creative desires and needs honestly hadn’t been happening. I’ve worked on a few small pieces and done some commission work but true painting from the soul….. I miss it..
Sans the painting I’ve been doing okay.. Trying to rebuild my relationship with my son after the separation from my ex and trying to find myself amongst the rubble I left in my wake.. I have to admit after I came bak from the UK last year I basically freaked.. 17 years of my life, my children and the world as I knew it gone…… So here we are a new year dawning just around the corner, me in a new life, new place and new people. Sorry for the digression it’s early here and I’m squirreling in a sea of med head being rather reflective. The point being of this post photos… Yes despite all these silly words pictures will arrive shortly. I’ve been reducing my pain pills and have started walking lots, painfully at times but with my balance fading and my memory changing I figure everything I can do to keep this fucking Parkinson’s at bay I should probably do. No on to the walk about. All of these photos were taken on with my phone and edited with either Instagram or a simple photo edit app.
“Waterfront” An evening walk 21/12/14
“Night walk” Look up
“At the Park”
** This last pic was on a walk at a little pull out. It has no title or purpose other than to make me happy. Now time for some written words:
The dawn comes so quickly
When I’m with you.
There are times when I know
Not whether we chase the night
Or run from the sun
Your thoughts made real
By the strength of my
Grip. My desires made
Real by all of you.
There is not moment in time
That my thoughts don’t rest
To the taste I mouth or
The beat of your tender heart
Next to mine.
For it is not the ropes that
Restrain us but the ties that
As always thank you for your time, encouragement, patients and understanding as I share this journey.
Please remember to always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have. Oh and smile it’s good for you ;)
It’s kind of heart breaking to go back exactly one year to the day and see how much has changed. I hope those of you reading this feel love, joy and happiness. 3 days till Christmas I hope the season has treated you well.
Life’s given me lots of things some good some bad. Some easy as walking in a door and some I’ve hard to work for until every pore in my body cried out in agony. This task I take on today I have myself. I probably could have asked while the contractor was here if he and his crew could paint and lay the floors for my studio. It would have been as easy as walking in the door. But I was taught by a very stubborn yet loving grandfather that the things in life we most appreciate are the things we build ourselves. Not unlike the relationships we have with people or the car we first get and spend hours of bloody knuckles trying to fix. Not unlike my studio. This space will live and breathe the essence I put into it. Therefore I chose to do the work myself…