The winds of change blow hard
hard and cold through the valley this morning.
Casting a chill of doubt and thought on everything it touches.
Bare trees replace the skinned knees
Of summer and cheeks are pink from a bitter cold bite
Instead of a loving hand.
These shakes of mine have found the best of me and thrown it to the wind. To be forever tossed like the last leaf of fall.
Such a bitter end for one who tried so hard.
Life lately has been like riding a storm at sea without a compass. At times I drift close enough to land to see the horizon lines of where’s I’ve been and where I like to be yet getting there seems to be growing harder and harder as this blasted Parkinson’s changes my brain chemistry.
Honestly I write this in a small moment of clarity when I can actually sit back an see my life and I wonder wtf happened.?
These moments of clear thinking are the ones that cause the most panic I think. When I can see what I was whom I think I am now and see the path that will lead me to whee I’d like to be again. So much work to do to get there. I often wonder how or if I’ll find the energy and resources to get there. But as we’ve all hear before and my grandfather used to say “where there is a will there’s a way” and I’ve always believed that life is just a huge puzzle with moving pieces. I can clearly see where I’d like to be in my life the trick is moving the pieces to the right place at the right time. Plus a ton of hard work and luck never hurt.
“Dear Liza a hole”
I’ll be spending the next few days compiling a group of paintings and prints for an end of the year SALE. I like to start each year fresh so stay tunes if you’ve had your eye on any pieces. Feel free to search the galleries for works o interest.
Again many thanks for your support over the last year I can’t wait to share this new year of adventure and growth with all of you and hey with any luck this will be the year they cure Parkinson’s disease.
“Never give up hope”
Motto for this year. I’ll explain in more detail later.
Much love, light and laughter to all.
“A life in progress”
Yep it’s that time of the year again where I put stuff on sale. Free shipping, discounts on large pieces. I basically will entertain any offer on any piece. It’s the end of the year and I really like starting the year with a clean slate. The above link will take you to the new “Print” page and from there I believe it’s pretty straight forward. As always if you need a hand or don’t understand what’s for sale, size, cost or you just want to say hi, just send me an email and we’ll figure it out together.
I’m in the process of working on a really huge project that I hope will effect a great many people with Parkinson’s disease and any person living with a disability. I’m in talks with the building owner to expand my studio another 450 sqr. ft. and in doing so put together a class room area and a working professional studio like I had prior to moving down town. The annex space will promote artists with disabilities from around the world and advocate for Parkinson’s disease. Statistical fact: Only about 5-10% of the million plus people diagnosed with PD are under the age of 50 years of age. It’s a small number sure, 10k people but think about how hard it is for science and technology to accurately and in a timely fashion diagnose and effectively treat people with YOPD when the testing an population pool is so small. I feel that the studio and my documented experiences with Parkinson’s puts me in a unique position to explain what it’s like to thrive with a disability. I’ve also started the paperwork for an Arts Grant to help finance the expansion.
Well it’s been a big day, grant writing, business proposals and writing programs. Some day I’ll paint again lol.
Over the passed month I’ve been so busy doing these small events locally that spending time painting for my own creative desires and needs honestly hadn’t been happening. I’ve worked on a few small pieces and done some commission work but true painting from the soul….. I miss it..
Sans the painting I’ve been doing okay.. Trying to rebuild my relationship with my son after the separation from my ex and trying to find myself amongst the rubble I left in my wake.. I have to admit after I came bak from the UK last year I basically freaked.. 17 years of my life, my children and the world as I knew it gone…… So here we are a new year dawning just around the corner, me in a new life, new place and new people. Sorry for the digression it’s early here and I’m squirreling in a sea of med head being rather reflective. The point being of this post photos… Yes despite all these silly words pictures will arrive shortly. I’ve been reducing my pain pills and have started walking lots, painfully at times but with my balance fading and my memory changing I figure everything I can do to keep this fucking Parkinson’s at bay I should probably do. No on to the walk about. All of these photos were taken on with my phone and edited with either Instagram or a simple photo edit app.
“Waterfront” An evening walk 21/12/14
“Night walk” Look up
“At the Park”
** This last pic was on a walk at a little pull out. It has no title or purpose other than to make me happy. Now time for some written words:
The dawn comes so quickly
When I’m with you.
There are times when I know
Not whether we chase the night
Or run from the sun
Your thoughts made real
By the strength of my
Grip. My desires made
Real by all of you.
There is not moment in time
That my thoughts don’t rest
To the taste I mouth or
The beat of your tender heart
Next to mine.
For it is not the ropes that
Restrain us but the ties that
As always thank you for your time, encouragement, patients and understanding as I share this journey.
Please remember to always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have. Oh and smile it’s good for you ;)
It’s kind of heart breaking to go back exactly one year to the day and see how much has changed. I hope those of you reading this feel love, joy and happiness. 3 days till Christmas I hope the season has treated you well.
Life’s given me lots of things some good some bad. Some easy as walking in a door and some I’ve hard to work for until every pore in my body cried out in agony. This task I take on today I have myself. I probably could have asked while the contractor was here if he and his crew could paint and lay the floors for my studio. It would have been as easy as walking in the door. But I was taught by a very stubborn yet loving grandfather that the things in life we most appreciate are the things we build ourselves. Not unlike the relationships we have with people or the car we first get and spend hours of bloody knuckles trying to fix. Not unlike my studio. This space will live and breathe the essence I put into it. Therefore I chose to do the work myself…
Such a bright loud day…. Cars bustling people panicking as they shop for gifts. It’s all rather comical if watched from the comfort of the third floor window. I should be stressing about holiday gifts but I’m not. Life’s to short to stress about spending money I don’t have. I did however manage to get my “Grant” paperwork in on time.
This time of the year I like to remind people to slow down…. Don’t get caught up in the stress of the holidays because whether your ready or not they’ll come and go before you know it. This year is going to be unique for me and my family. I’ve one half going one direction and the other going another which unfortunately leave me waiting in the middle. I think it’ll be good for me. Hard, yet a just another part of the process I suppose.
Since I began to write this post it has begun to rain….and rain..and rain ..
Oh and did I mention it RAINED and is still raining.
Though I did do one pretty fantastic thing today. I was invited to attend a event. The Bohemian Bash, it was the 5th annual event and simply it’s just bunch of creative people getting dressed up painting, creating and sharing ideas. Good food, company and music. Oh and I painted this during the event as we had easels lining the walls of the ballroom :) very cool!!!!
**freedom of expression**
Well folks that’s about all I’ve got. It’s been a big day and I’m beat, it’s time for a beer some dinner and bed. I wish the best for you and yours. Please Renee to always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have, we never know when or how it’ll change but guaranteed it will it always does.
They can build bridges across time and space. They can mend wounds, bring smiles, hope and cure a broken heart. How have you used your words today?
Me: I spent an hour on the phone talking with the WPC *World Parkinson’s Coalition people about an event that brings hope, courage, community and peace of mind to people around the globe. The next event is just north of me in Portland Oregon 2016.
I also spent a part of the morning working on the business end of the “Gallery-Studio” Annex. I’m trying to write a grant proposal that’s due Friday and if I don’t do it first thing in the morning my brain squirrels to hard by lunch time to really be of much use in the critical thinking dept.
I know I’ve mentioned it before but seriously it never ceases to amaze me how fast and hard things can change in a couple of nights. An idea turns into a conversation that grows into a more complex idea that grows legs and starts to self evolve, then BAM!! You’ve a project that turns into a “thing” that grows and suddenly things start falling into place. Life’s funny that way, sometimes it is a simple as having the courage or humility to ask for approval or help. Yes it’s true the old adage of “You never know until you ask” well it’s true. So often we assume because I the passed that an answer will always follow a pattern an mostly it does life has a was of being predictable, because we humans love our patterns and routines. Heck I’m dependent on them. But sometimes if you ask the right question to the right person at the right time wheels and ideas can be out in motion that will start to change just about anything that you want to. Remember Dreams are just ideas, ideas are just dreams not yet realized. So point yourself in the direction you want to end up and start doing… Do one small thing each day that brings you closer to that goal
And before you know it you’ll be telling other people how amazing the journey was to the end if your goal or priority.
On a closing note I hope you’ve all be well, happy, healthy and safe. The world is a large an vast place especially when it comes to the human heart, mind and soul so please remember to always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.
Hopefully in a month or so I’ll have a new gallery space, new studio space and lots lots more to share. This year I’m going to dedicate to Parkinson’s advocacy work, Art therapy, painting and teaching educational classes on art and color theory. PD awareness and education. Thankfully I have the support of some very wonderful people in my life, including all of you. May all your days be the kind dreams are made of.