Theses lines find no home
They just are…..
Or are they? Do they not give way to this journey of life?
Each new encounter not unlike a passage from your favorite book or a stroll down the lane at dawn as a gentle warm breeze pushes your hair aside.
These lines find no home…..
Or do they..?
Do they settle in your heart as they do
Does the gentle sun as it warms your face remind you of my touch as it does mine to you.
These passages have found a home..
A home in your heart of hearts that only you could have done. Passages
As always my friends please take the time to be kind and understanding with each other for if not YOU then WHO positive change starts with you.
Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.
Just green tendencies I see these days with strokes of blue and yellow. Red for the pain and white for the light. Such passages are these we travel. What turn is the right one, should I go over or under or simple forget it all and fade away as I walk this next path.
Light echoes in dark corners pulling back the veil of truth, just glimpses I wish I never seen. Passages, some are easy some are not…. And are important.
Here we are again you and I. Perhaps some music like in the old days.
Much better… And now to the matters at hand Parkinson’s, painting and life stuff.. First just a touch of the life stuff.
I feel like for the first time in my life I’m surrounded by people that share me desire to grow and thrive in life. People who know and understand the often difficult and quirky man I am. Though I must say I miss spending time with my beautiful and talented daughter Isabella. She and my son inspire me to be a better person daily. Science(y) stuff….zzzzzzzzzzz
My PD has been changing and shifting as it does and will which in my moment of weakness cause little ripples of pure terror to echo through my soul but what’s a fella to do but ride it out until the fear of a frozen body and active mind passes. Frozen? You maybe wondering, “I thought PWP moved lots “wiggled” yeah….well not really, the Latin for PD is “arresto momentum” LOL not really that quote belongs to Harry Potter. paralysis a’gitans : Parkinson’s disease
is the Latin for PD which is effectively translated into the “Arrest” or stopping of movement or motion. So now you know :) Okay, we’ve had some music and a little “learning time” now perhaps some art to lighten the mood.
This piece is a continued unfinished work in progress. I’ve also been spending more time with “?”
apparently I haven’t taken many pictures yet of this piece. The piece leaning against the wall is coming along nicely though the piece on the table is proving to be a challenge, but that’s a good thing right? Challenge myself to grow, change, continue to push my boundaries as an artist and human.
Oh and I just remembered to share this, I’ll be opening a gallery space here in the building within the next few weeks!!! Woot!!! Well it’s time to hit “post” and do a little sharing, sorry thins are a bit disjointed but sitting and typing doesn’t really happen anymore these days. I’m really trying hard to be very present in my life right now, so for now I’ll bid you adieu. May all your dreams come true”
So have you ever had one of those days when the world slaps the living crap of you…? Well today wasn’t one of those days thankfully but it certainly could have been. Today I had my in person interview with the state office of Human Services…..Que dramatic music. ;)
So basically I spent 1.5 hours today letting a stranger, mind you a fabulous human, but a stranger none the less into my home and told her all about how I used to be “not sick” aka have Parkinson’s and how now I can barely drink coffee without it being in a travel cup for the fear o wearing half of it.
Maybe a little overly dramatic but my bad days have gotten worse and my good days have gotten slower so today was the day I asked for help. It’s only a four letter word. H.e.l.p. It’s easy to spell,write and say…. But for those of us who never really learned how to ask for it. Well it’s hard as heck to for me to do. Yet when faced with the fact that I need physical help with everything I figured now was a good time to ask.
…..a couple days later…….
Well it was approved!!! Woot!! I’m still waiting to hear how much funds will be allocated towards my care from the State of Oregon but they said yes! That’s all that matters at this point. Now onto some art like things. First let’s take a quick look at some pics I’ve take lately.
And then maybe some paint…?
Two pieces that I’m currently working on. Well it’s time for groceries and a hair cut. As always be brave be bold and thrive in the life you have.
There comes a time in every artist life where we must let go. Let go of the pain and memories of our passed. I’ve been growing so much lately. Today I receive back some paintings from my ex-wife. I will be slowly making these available to the public as I find the heart to let them go… First I give you
Good day, it’s lovely to see you again, I hope the world has been kind to you and yours. Here is a quick look the first images from the studio. First a photo: Shroud
And then some paint:
The shroud Really made for me 2014 complete, the photo was taken 1/1/15 it evoked a feeling of closure, a literal putting the old year behind me, putting it to bed, entombed in the fading memories of my passed.
SHE is a work in progress a painting just for me.This will be the first of the 2015 My Girlscollection.
Well after having this entire post delete twice, I’m going to leave this third closing statement short.
Cherish the ones you love, forgive the ones you don’t am live with passion for the things you do and have in you life.
Much love and best wishes in this new year.
“A life in progress”
So here we are…. 1/2 the world is in next year and the other half is waiting to their turn. Honestly I’m sooooo ready to leave 2014 behind. I made some amazing friends and sadly lost some amazing friends. I found and lost love. I laughed and cried as loud as I could and somehow I made it to this last day of 2014. I painted a ton o paintings and traveled around the world. An none of it I worth anything without my friends and family. So to those of you who are still out there, THANK YOU!! You inspire, teach and make me strive to be a better person everyday. You make me try and give me hope, for that and for much much more I’m forever in your debt.
In 2015 I’m hoping to stay closer to home, making just the UK trip and a couple short stateside trips. I’ll be pouring most all of my energy into Parkinson’s advocacy work and painting. Well it’s time for me to hit the “post” button.
Much love and light.
**last post of 2014 pst USA
The winds of change blow hard
hard and cold through the valley this morning.
Casting a chill of doubt and thought on everything it touches.
Bare trees replace the skinned knees
Of summer and cheeks are pink from a bitter cold bite
Instead of a loving hand.
These shakes of mine have found the best of me and thrown it to the wind. To be forever tossed like the last leaf of fall.
Such a bitter end for one who tried so hard.