The Hardest Goodbyes II

Originally posted on The Eclectic Poet:

This cartoon, published in The Chronicle Herald, resonated widely in Canada and around the world.

It spoke to me because like many in this small Capital, we feel Cpl. Cerillo’s loss on a deeply personal level.

The import wasn’t lost on me when I saw the photos of him standing guard just moments before the shooting and the photos moments after; as he lay surrounded by First Responders. He was guarding the World War I face of the monument. My Great Grandfather Tupper was KIA at Ypres and my Great Grandfather Thomas wounded at Passchendaele.

For that reason,  I find this image comforting in a small way.

Please read the story from The Chronicle Herald:

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Bruce McKinnon's editorial cartoon Copyright @Bruce MkcKinnon

Bruce MacKinnon’s editorial cartoon
Copyright @Bruce MacKinnon

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The Hardest Goodbyes I

Originally posted on The Eclectic Poet:

Closing this week in a city altered forever. Yesterday was “business as usual” though fair to say my thoughts were consumed with the continued emerging details surrounding the senseless death of Cpl. Nathan Cirillo.

I’m lost for words but these ones are more important than ever to me and to all Canadians:

O Canada!
Our home and native land!
True patriot love in all thy sons command.
With glowing hearts we see thee rise,
The True North strong and free!
From far and wide,
O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.
God keep our land glorious and free!
O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.
O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

Ô Canada!
Terre de nos aïeux,
Ton front est ceint de fleurons glorieux!
Car ton bras sait porter l’épée,
Il sait porter la croix!
Ton histoire est une épopée
Des plus brillants exploits.
Et ta…

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Wine, words and women

prewitt1970:

Where to begin….? With a long discussion about Bacchus or perhaps a literary discussion about the finer points of the comma and women oh dear me don’t even get me started on that subject… It’s been a bad week… I know it’s Tuesday ( Saturday now)but remember time and dates for me sadly are drifting away long with the things I used to know. Slowly fading into a book lost along the way and beautiful story with the saddest of endings…. Women…. Eventually I’ll write my book “letters from home” or “death,dying and divorce” some things I’m far to familiar with. Life short my friends… Enjoy what you have..

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“A Tree for Madeline”
I’ve finally clear the table for new work.. Well that’s not entirely true I have a large commission piece that I’ll be doing this November for a very ready friend, writer, poet and all around amazing woman. During the time being my paint table is open and I intend to dig deep in the heart if darkness, love and light for my next collection of work. I feel like I’m on the edge of a new powerful vision just waiting to be born.

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In the interim I’ve started a piece In calling
“Me, myself and I”
10/24/14 well let’s see it’s only taken me 5 days since I started this post to stay focused enough to press the post button. I figure I should press post before I we get any older.
**please know this… Where ever you are and what ever your doing. You have worth, value, talent and strength. I know sometimes it’s hard to see, but that’s what friends are for, to remind us of all the things we can’t see but need the most.

Much love.
Benjamin
“A life in progress”
1970-current.

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Completed~ The Last Coral

Over the past 3,4 years as many if you know I’ve been doing the “Coral” series. I’m not sure exactly how many I’ve done other the years but I do know they’re all out there in the world. Sold or given away. Over the course of 2014 lots in my life changed. From massive traveling to major life changing events and then there’s the whole Parkinson’s thing. The piece that I’ll show here today “The Last Coral” will be and is the last of the coral series that I’ll be doing. Now I may try using a different technique at some point but my days of using a liner brush #0 or #1 I’m pretty sure those days are done sadly. The tremors have gotten to the point that when doing fine motor skill pieces my hands just don’t cooperate that well anymore. I guess it a good thing I paint mostly with a pallet knife and painters rag. Well I suppose we should take a look at this final piece.
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The Last Coral
24″x24″
Mixed media
Ink,Acrylic,varnish
2013-2014
500usd

Below are the customary close ups.

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There we have it, it’s been an amazing adventure with the coral series and I look forward to figuring out a way to continue this series using a different process. Until next time then. Please remember to always, Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have….

Always
Benjamin
2014

Sneak peak at the next new piece.

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Fear~

Let’s talk shall we…. It’s been a while, won’t you please come in. I hope you’ve been well and life hasn’t been to hard for you. As usual these days it feels as though I do more living and less living all at once. Paintings more detailed yet small, words less written but more strong and full of heart. Yet my head finds no leave today a I’m faced with my life as it was as it is and how is like it to be.

For years I strive for one goal. For others to be strong, stronger than me or what I thought was me. I chased the dream of being human the dream of 2.5 kids a house, car, dog 2 cars and farm….. Then one day I realized I had it. And at that moment I lost it all. So let’s talk about fear, what are you afraid of? What am I afraid of? Failure and being alone are mine. Today I saw my son for a few brief hours and even with as much love as I have for him, I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed with the feeling of failure. Failure to him and his sister, failure to M and the life I used to have. The life I spent MY lifetime building. Compounded by my second largest fear, the fear of being alone with my demons. Today was and is a very silent day in the life I have now.. More quiet than it’s been in along time and far more quiet than I care for it to be. Really if I wanted to be alone I’d move to NY or the mountains. Being a painter or poetish person comes with the obligation to feel, to feel deeply, madly, passionately and then express it in a way that others can relate to…. Hopefully lol. Otherwise fade away into the darkness of my life.
So many thoughts about the future these days… A future alone? A future with Parkinson’s. Do I move to the coast and become a reclusive artist with a giant beard and skin covered in tattoos? So many questions.
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I used to fear change more than anything, now it seems that change is the only real thing I can count on. I’m tired of worry, I’m tired of this life yet it’s the only one I know. I paint, I write and I hope I wake up one more time. Beyond that it often feels like I’ve no idea wtf I’m doing. Not traveling for the end of this year is going to be one of the hardest yet hopefully rewarding things I’ll have done for myself in a long time. It will be the first time in my children’s lives that we’ve not been together for the holidays, so I firmly believe if I can make it through this season… I’ll survive anything. Well I’ve got to go, one of the things I haven’t talked about is why I don’t post as often as I used to…. I simply can’t. I can’t sit or have my arms bent that long anymore without a great deal of pain.. Bummer… But today is different, I needed this, I needed to spill my words and heart here again as I used to. I needed to feel at home somewhere in my life and this is where I came.
To those of you who read this thank you and to those of you who know me, don’t worry…
Please do me one small favor, in your life. Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.
Find love, find laughter for your heart and soul. Fill each day with the things that give you joy. For that my dear friends is what life should be about.

Always~
Benjamin
“A life in progress”
1970-current

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More words~

Places and faces:
My mind races, faces, places
Who is that in the mirror
dear find my face
Replace this man that i see me rushed and hushed
Pushed pulled pried and peeled
Field,lovers,lost,listen scream
do you hear what I mean
Seen,clean,bean
stream flow go slow
peace..release..pause, claws at my mind unwind relax attacks
panic shower flower bloom consume the day dismay stay away
the earth spins to fast
at last a ride home
comb toothbrush and rest best flow to those who know
gone spawn dreams as it seems lost child of mine me
did you see what I see stars a far calm….. Done…. Gone fishing….. Go home….. Good bye…. Flyaway…bye bye….shy,why,me….at sea….let it be,let it be.. Whisper words of wisdom. Let it be…..

Benjamin
2014

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Once upon a time…..

When life was young and carefree. When the wars of man, body and mind where unknown. Just simple whispers in the dark, ghost and nightmares of a younger mans thoughts and fears. Then we are born screaming into this madness of hellhole. Hi, yes I’m in one o my dark moods today. These days that edge is so paper thin. The further I get from the life I had the more angry and tired I get. Today I’ve been working on a piece I’m calling “Conflict”
12″x12″
Mixed media.

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This next piece has been completed and is waiting to be hard mounted into it’s frame.

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Back to basics
11″x14″ unframed
15″ x 18″ framed
Mixed media
2014
Bmp west coast studio
200.usd

I’d like to say I’ve spent the day creating and being carefree but I’m afraid that didn’t happen. I seem to have stumbled upon some dark clouds I can’t seem to kick but as I’ve said before and so often in this life have learned to count on. Everything changes, tomorrow is another day and another chance to make all ones dreams come true.

Until we meet again please try to be kind to one another, for if not us, then who? Cheers

Benjamin
2014
“A life in progress”

Coming soon:
*** First Paint ***

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*** Thing I see and how I see them ***

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Never enough time…

Everyday I sit and try to make time to write or post updates on the adventures of my life. Yet there never seems to be enough time. I paint and live, socialize, volunteer and do consulting work not to mention try to have some sort of private life, sometimes I think I should just have a video camera attached to my hat lol… But then nobody really wants to see details of a crazy painters life..
Lately my PD has been fighting me at every turn. Honestly it feels like my symptoms are changing again and I’m not sure I’m ready for that reality yet.

Anyhow enough of all the depressing stuff, everybody has their own demons. I can’t remember if I have shared the Gallery Showing I had this last Wednesday. If I hadn’t please take a quick look at a few pics from the evening.

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And

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Since then I’ve been working on a few smaller “test” pieces this first photo is an example piece o what I would like to do on a large scale.

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Here I’m trying to work with less texturing but give what texture does exists a more bold and defined look which I think will look very striking in a much larger form.
This next piece is a practice in warm and bold colours, sand, fire, sun, stone.

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I have a third and fourth piece I’m working on as well but I’m not ready to share them at this point, soon though.
Well time is slipping by as w speak so I must bid you adieu for the time being. Until we meet again. Please remember to be Brave, be Bold and Thrive in the life you have.

Much love and light.
Benjamin
“A life in progress”
2014.
Coming soon…….

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“It’s all for you” **WORDS**

There are times in the small
Dark of the night when I can’t
Feel my heart…..

Then there’s you… Your hand
Over my chest.. Reminding me
I’m alive.. Loved.. And cherished.

If only the darkness would leave…

B~xx

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So close~

Again it feels like I haven’t been here for a while. Life has a way of whisking us up into it’s vortex an dropping is so far from home… But then every great adventure should lead one to many strange lands and meet as many fantastic people as possible. Lately my PD has been both good and bad. My body has been semi cooperative but my headspace is lost “Squirrel”!!!! Honestly it’s pretty bad. But slowly I’m getting all my systems back in place and hopefully by the new year I’ll have things sorted.

As far as Art is concerned I’m at the final stages of the two commissioned pieces I’ve been working on. The red piece has since been completed during the process of me writing this post.
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Actually signed.

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The Blue/Green piece is going up in tonight’s show as a work in progress with any luck it’ll open the conversation door about the process.

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And the close up and personal pic.

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Anyhow I’m late for PT so I best be off. Here is a sneak peak at my next post
Solo Show

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Stay tuned.

As always Be Brave, Be Bold and Thrive in the life you have. You never know when it’s going to change.

Benjamin
2014
“A life in progress”